Tuesday, October 5, 2010

what is this?

Since I last posted I've been feeling relatively good, not much down time.  One of the other things that has happened is the emergence of strong sexual desire.  I had a few theories about this, ranging from the purely biological (wildly fluctuating perimenopausal hormones) to the textbook Freudian (emergence of longing from unfulfilled infant needs).

I ran this one past my psychologist.  Yes, I decided to go back to my previous psychologist.  I rang her and talked about what I was doing and asked if she thought she could work with me even though she's not a schema therapist per se. 

Her theory:  as I didn't get physical nurturing as a child, the first time I really experienced this was with sex.  So need for physical nurturance becomes desire for sex. 

It makes an awful lot of sense to me.

She thought it would be good for me to sit with the desire, let it run its course.  That is the therapeutic thing to do with strong emotions.  Unfortunately I am also wanting to do something about it.   I'm stuck in this debate with myself about what to do.